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PRE-DSMP
I use "Pre-DSMP" to describe any memories I have before the main events of the DSMP story.THE BASICS...
 NAME: None
 NICKNAMES: Boy, kid, etc.
 AGE: 0 - 4 years
 BIRTHDAY: Unknown
 GENDER: (cis) Male, he/him
 SPECIES: Presumably human
 ORIENTATION: N/A
 HEALTH: Monitored supposedly from birth. Constant tests of unknown drugs. Injured and untreated fairly often. Malnourished and mentally behind in education - I couldn't really speak, read, etc. I was also micro chipped.
 NOTES: A lot of the lab was devoid of color. I was very overwhelmed when I escaped...
 My teeth and ears were noticeably pointed, but any other traits didn't pop up until later on.LIKES: Sleeping, Eryn, playtime, soft things
 DISLIKES: Scientists, doctors, metal, the dark, medicine, loud sounds, hands


THE BASICS...
 NAME: Tommy
 NICKNAMES: Toms, dear, kiddo, sweetheart, honey, etc.
 AGE: 4 - 11 years
 BIRTHDAY: Unknown, celebrated in April
 GENDER: (cis) Male, he/him
 SPECIES: Presumably human
 ORIENTATION: Unknown
 HEALTH: Much healthier and happier. Eating and sleeping much more regularly, and my body wasn't being stressed under medication constantly. I was finally having the chance to grow in many ways. I felt safe and loved.
 NOTES: I was very loud and excitable once I grew up more. I was actually allowed to be a kid and become someone.LIKES: Family, music, dancing, animals, flowers, cooking, playing, cuddling, biting
 DISLIKES: The dark, rules that made no sense to me, misunderstanding something important
Relationships: Pre-DSMP 1

Family (Tentatively)
 Father: Philza
I was afraid of him at first, but he was the first adult to ever actually care for me. I know I was a bit of a pain to take care of, with where I came from, but he still did it. He cut my hair, clothed me, fed me, and took me in. I remember being shocked at how much I was getting in such a short amount of time. I wasn't used to anyone being so nice. It's something I can never repay him for enough. I would have died if he didn't help me.
Oldest Brother: Technoblade
Similar to Phil, I was nervous, but I warmed up to Techno soon after. He primarily used his human form around me until I got more comfortable. I'd barely seen animals before, so his piglin form really threw me off. He was very soft and warm either way, so I liked that a lot. I think I tended to try and test his limits - it felt safe to see what was good vs bad with Techno. If I bit too hard, or was too loud, Techno was how I learnt a lot of social cues.
Older Brother: Wilbur
I had been running for a few days when Wilbur found me. I heard music for the first time from his guitar. He offered me a warm treat, a lap to sleep on, and named me. I remember feeling so warm and happy over how nice he was... He was so nice and welcoming. I never wanted to leave. I clung to him a lot, and often looked to him for guidance and safety. He introduced me to the rest of our family, and showed me what happiness feels like. He grew to become the most important factor of my life, and that had not wavered since.
Roommate/Friend
 Eryn
Admittedly, I didn't know Eryn very well. Only on account of there not being much to know. I had a handful of roommates in the lab, but Eryn stuck around the longest. Soon they couldn't separate us very easily - it was more efficient to keep us together. Eryn and I tried to protect each other, feed each other, and played with each other. We couldn't do much, but if the other was hurt we'd hug and comfort them. I felt sad that I couldn't take him with me when I escaped.
Enemies
 The Scientists
I hated the scientists with everything in me capable of hatred. They belittled me, hurt me, abused me, and did it all with a blank face. If not that, it'd only be for mockery or at my expense. They hated me as much as I hated them. I was a little prick - constantly making their job harder. They hated how much I bit and growled, or struggled. They were angry with me refusing medicine and experimentation. When I escaped, they tracked me down until I got to Phil's house. I destroyed the tracker when I grew older; Phil intervened early on so that they wouldn't do anything more to me.
Relationships: Pre-DSMP 2

Family
 Mother: Mumza / Kristin
I never got to meet mom, as much as I wanted to. I was told a lot of stories and shown a lot of pictures, but I never met her as a child. I knew she was kind, and talented. I remember being really sad sometimes when we'd go to the shops and such, seeing mothers with their children. I already felt out of place sometimes by being adopted - it felt even weirder to miss something that wasn't really "mine". I guess I more so missed the possibilities; grieving what could have been, so to speak. I admired and respected her memory, though, and always felt honored when dad told me about her.
Father: Dadza / Phil
I was now very comfortable with Phil, and viewed him entirely as my father. He and I were fairly close emotionally (sans for when I was getting into trouble). However, we did clash sometimes when it came to interests or how I'd go about things. He did teach me how to spar before I moved onto being taught by Techno (?). He's also where I learned how to do a lot of practical skills; cooking, chores, caring for livestock, mining and bladesmithing, etc. Phil was one of the first places where I felt safe and protected - I felt like I could actually act my age around him. In some of my most vulnerable moments as a child, Phil was there. It's a weakness I can't describe.
 Once Tech and Wil left for their own stuff, we were at home alone for a short while with only each other. There were a lot of days of him reading to me as I whittled, or helping him prepare baked goods to send off. I believe I also helped him with up keeping our house and we took some time (as my brothers were away) to take care of things that had been in bad shape for years. Overall we grew pretty close, and he had a permanent role as my family.
Oldest Brother: Technoblade
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Older Brother: Wilbur
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Friends
 Tubbo
 Other
 Role Model: Schlatt
 Acquaintances: Quackity?, Niki, Jack/Thunder, Purpled?
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L'MANBERG
THE BASICS...
 NAME: MG. Thomas Innit
 NICKNAMES: Sir, General, Lieutenant, Tommy, Toms (family), Tomás
 AGE: 11 - 14 years
 BIRTHDAY: April 9
 GENDER: (cis) Male, he/him
 SPECIES: Presumably human
 ORIENTATION: Unknown
 HEALTH: Fairly okay, but not the greatest. I was injured often in the war - be it training, or being on the front lines. I suffered a lot of wounds and damage to my ears in particular due to explosives. I felt very strongly about protecting my home and my people, so I took a lot of blows meant for others.
 NOTES: I was in a lot of minor wars before and after this, but this was my first real war and battle. This was the most important one.LIKES: Family, music, fireplaces, flowers, animals, nature, sewing, gardening, singing
 DISLIKES: Dream, TNT, being silenced, helplessness
"Whenever I close my eyes, it all comes back clearly."

Relationships: L'manberg

Family
 Older Brother: Wilbur
 Nephew: FundyFriends
 Tubbo
 Niki
 JackEnemies
 Dream
 Sapnap
 George
 Eret
 Punz
POGTOPIA
THE BASICS...
 NAME: Tommy Innit
 NICKNAMES: Tom, Toms
 AGE: 15 years
 BIRTHDAY: April 9
 GENDER: (cis) Male, he/him
 SPECIES: Presumably Human
 ORIENTATION: Unknown
 MENTAL HEALTH: Very unwell. A lot of anxiety and fear, as well as uncertainty. I was really numb throughout everything.
 PHYSICAL HEALTH: Very unwell. Poor sleep, scarce eating, injuries from scouting (and the pit).
 NOTES: I was really shaky during this time. Probably due to anxiety.LIKES: Family, any music I could hear, bugs, warmth, Wilbur's coat, sunsets
 DISLIKES: Schlatt & Dream.
I drink to our demolished house, to you, our loneliness together, to the dead-cold eyes - that God has not saved us.

Relationships: Pogtopia

Family
 Oldest Brother: Techno
 Older Brother: Wilbur
 Nephew: FundyFriends
 Tubbo
 Quackity
 Niki
 JackEnemies
 Dream
 Sapnap
 George
 Eret
 Punz
 Schlatt
 Phil
EXILE
THE BASICS...
 NAME: Tommy
 NICKNAMES: Tom, Toy, Ex Vice Pres., liability
 AGE: 16 years
 BIRTHDAY: April 9
 GENDER: (cis) Male, he/him
 SPECIES: Presumably Human???
 ORIENTATION: Unknown
 MENTAL HEALTH: All time low. Extremely depressed and suicidal. I was angry with anyone who pretended to help. Overwhelmed with grief for my brother, my family, my home, and my friends. My life, to me, was far past over. I had lost everything.
 PHYSICAL HEALTH: Extremely malnourished. Some bones broken occasionally. Many bruises, cuts, scrapes, wounds, etc. Burns covered my arms and legs due to explosions. My hearing was suffering another blow as well. I often woke up in the ocean, surfacing and coughing up water.After I had jumped, I believe I had sprained my ankle. I had severe burns from hours prior. I was cold, wet, and I had to run. I barely made it to Techno's cabin.Notes: Obviously, this time was highly traumatic to me. It affected many aspects of my life for years to come.LIKES: Ghostbur, music, warmth, sleep
 DISLIKES: Pity, loud sounds, hands, explosions, sand, fire, the nether, myself

RELATIONSHIPS: EXILE

FamilyOlder Brother: Ghostbur
 Nephew: FundyFriends?
 Quackity
 Mexican Dream
 Ranboo
 DreamOther
 Tubbo
 Phil
 TechnoEnemies?
 Dream
Antarctic
 Empire
THE BASICS...
 NAME: Tommy Innit
 AGE: 16 years
 BIRTHDAY: April 9
 GENDER: (cis) Male, he/him
 SPECIES: ???
 ORIENTATION: Unknown
 MENTAL HEALTH: Aftermath of exile, so put through the wringer. Very paranoid, anxious, and still dealing with suicidal thoughts. Fighting with myself mentally about what happened during exile. Dealing with a lot of my C-PTSD, both from exile and wars.
 PHYSICAL HEALTH: Healing up from everything that happened. Sleep deprived... horribly so. Still not used to sleeping or eating, but trying. Tail has mostly grown in, and horns were just starting to.NOTES: During doomsday, I prepared for hours straight without sleeping. Any progress I made at the cabin was wiped rather quickly. I did not sleep, eat, or even sit down for hours.LIKES: Family, music, animals, stew, blankets, cookies, warmth,
 DISLIKES: Dream, small spaces, the dark, the cold, loud sounds, hands, explosions

Relationships: Antarctic Empire

Family
 Father: Phil
 Oldest Brother: Techno
 Older Brother: Ghostbur
 Nephew: FundyFriends?
 Quackity
 RanbooEnemies
 Dream
 Tubbo?
HOTEL
THE BASICS...
 NAME: Tommy Innit
 NICKNAMES: Toms, Kid, Son, Kiddo
 AGE: 16-17 years
 BIRTHDAY: April 9
 GENDER: (cis) Male, he/him
 SPECIES: Demon-Human Hybrid?
 ORIENTATION: Unknown
 MENTAL HEALTH: Best I had been mentally since Wilbur's passing. I finally had time after everything to calm down and be. I went to therapy, I found coping mechanisms. I wasn't perfect by any means, but I was doing great. I felt like I was finally recovering from everything. I felt hopeful.
 PHYSICAL HEALTH: It took a while to fully heal from everything, and I was still suffering from a lot of aches and larger wounds healing. I was gaining a lot more strength again, though. My ears notably had suffered a lot from so many explosions. I also was struggling heavily with fine motor stuff - my hands were weaker and weren't doing what I wanted, they kept shaking.
 NOTES: Horns and tail had fully grown in by now. It hurt a fuck ton, but now that their growth had slowed, it was less bothersome.LIKES: Family, music, animals, nature, knitting/sewing, baking, gardening, singing, hugging
 DISLIKES: Dream, the ocean, loud sounds, TNT, the dark, small spaces, the nether

Relationships: Hotel

Family
 Father: Phil
 Oldest Brother: Techno
 Older Brother: Ghostbur
 Nephew: FundyFriends
 Quackity
 Ranboo
 Niki
 JackOther
 Sam
 Sam Nook
 Tubbo
 PuffyEnemies
 Dream
death.
THE BASICS...
 NAME: Tommy Innit
 NICKNAMES: N/A
 AGE: 17 years
 BIRTHDAY: April 9
 GENDER: (cis) Male, he/him
 SPECIES: Demon-Human Hybrid
 ORIENTATION: Unknown
 MENTAL HEALTH: This was the second worst thing to ever happen to me. I fell back mentally completely. My death and everything around it was, obviously, extremely traumatic. I wasn't the same after; I just came back wrong. I was extremely paranoid and just wanted to hide away.
 PHYSICAL HEALTH: Well, not to say the obvious, but I fucking died. When I came back, my head had only healed up to the point of 'not fatal'. Everything hurt. I was very touch averse and easily overstimulated, by everything. Later in life, I'd continue to get nosebleeds and headaches stemming from this death.
 NOTES: Part of the reason exile was so scary was the threat of Dream killing me. Then he actually did it. This was my worst nightmare beginning to take fruition.LIKES: Warmth, soft things
 DISLIKES: Dream, the ocean, loud sounds, TNT, the dark, small spaces, the nether, blackstone, lava, plains biomes, heights, taking damage

relationships: death

Family
 Older Brother: WilburOther
 Sam
 Schlatt
 Mexican DreamEnemies
 Dream
post revival
THE BASICS...
 NAME: Tommy Innit
 NICKNAMES: Toms, dear, honey, sweetheart,
 AGE: 17 years
 BIRTHDAY: April 9
 GENDER: (cis) Male, he/him
 SPECIES: Demon-Human Hybrid
 ORIENTATION: Probably gay
 MENTAL HEALTH: I began to settle a bit more as my sensitivity wore down... slightly. I was still very anxious, depressed, and paranoid about Dream. Especially once he escaped. Wilbur's revival gave me a chance to heal partially, but not move on or get any proper closure. My trauma was too vast for that.
 PHYSICAL HEALTH: After everything, I had constant aches and sores. My hands were very shaky, and body was scarred all over. I would probably be considered HOH. I had major trouble sleeping consistently or well. I think at some points, I had a limp that'd act up here and there. I usually just tried to push through and ignore it.
 NOTES: I was very attached to those around me, to the point of desperation. I didn't want to lose what little I had remaining.LIKES: Family, music, animals, nature, knitting/sewing, gardening, Las Nevada's lights
 DISLIKES: Dream, the ocean, sand, loud sounds, TNT, the dark, small spaces, the nether, blackstone, lava, plains biomes, heights

relationships: post revival

Family
 Father: Phil
 Oldest Brother: Techno
 Older Brother: Ghostbur
 Nephew: FundyFriends
 Quackity
 Ranboo
 Niki
 JackOther
 Sam
 Sam Nook
 Tubbo
 PuffyEnemies
 Dream
Op!Tommy
(Fanfic: Ours Poetica)
THE BASICS...
 NAME: Theseus "Tommy" Soot
 NICKNAMES: Tommy, Toms, Tom
 AGE: 16-18
 BIRTHDAY: ?
 GENDER: (cis) Male, he/him
 SPECIES: Human
 ORIENTATION: Gay Straight! 😄
 MENTAL HEALTH: Might come as a shocker, but pretty fucking bad! I had depression, anxiety, and C-PTSD. It only improved upon moving out and living with Wilbur.
 PHYSICAL HEALTH: My physical health was largely neglected after 10 years old. Beyond that, I also self harmed often throughout middle and high school.
 NOTES: wipLIKES: Poetry, my brother, music, video games
 DISLIKES:

ARGINNIT
THE BASICS...
 NAME: Tommy Soot
 NICKNAMES: Toms, Tom
 AGE: 16
 BIRTHDAY: ???
 GENDER: Male
 SPECIES: Human
 ORIENTATION: Gay? I'm like that tweet - "I'm probably gay but I have a job so I'm not gonna worry about it."
 MENTAL HEALTH:
 PHYSICAL HEALTH:
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